May 2012
1 post
“And not to be under-mimed there is a sense of time. Just one that i cannot...”
– The Charlatan
April 2012
2 posts
I Am The Undertow
So this is what it feels like? To be the current under the surface? Pulling and tugging and dragging you down? Your words show no remorse as they whisper their goodbyes but neither does your hand seem to let go. To wish things would have ended differently would be no better, just another wasted ounce of strength. Our journey ahead is long and ardous and I’ve no energy to waste. Remember this...
And so it ends...
With you walking out that door. Into the rain you disapeared.
February 2012
1 post
These tears are all I remember. Your face stands still in time. I cry every time I try to remember even the vaguest thought of you. Not once has my brain been able to conjur up your face. Like a ghost you haunt me. You take whats left of me and I can’t fight what’s coming for me.
January 2012
1 post
I’m the Greatest actor alive - The Charlatan
December 2011
3 posts
Maybe one day I’ll realize what I’ve done and atone for my sins. But right now all I want is to live to sin another day. - The Charlatan
“I’ll listen to your silence in reverse. Hear the things you never said....”
“Come down, and I’ll capture you.
Speak loud, and forever I’ll be...”
– The Charlatan
September 2011
4 posts
“I’m going away for awhile. Maybe when the rain starts falling and has...”
I swear I found something in your eyes…. Your blessing, was all I needed. How long I’ve searched for you. How long have I wandered and roamed. How long have I doubted. You stood beside me all along. Through the wastelands, I’ve wandered, through the deepest abyss. Through all my despair. You’ve kept my head up over water. Never letting me sink in deep. Though I’ve...
“Every stroke on that canvas is a memory. This brush painted with the utmost...”
– The Charlatan
“and she sat there at the bar looking right through me. She could see that it was...”
April 2011
1 post
Why are you still here? Don’t you know I’m the poison in your veins? I’m the cancer growing in your skin, the hand ripping your heart out. Run away. Run far far away. I don’t want you to understand me. If you understand me it means you’re in the same fucking hole. Don’t you dare let me drag you here. I won’t have you buried beside me. - The Charlatan
February 2011
1 post
Salvation
How do you believe in the idea of a ghost that sounds more like a fairy tale than a tangible person? I feel so hopeless sometimes that even your false comfort I crave. When will I be free? Is there hope beyond this?
January 2011
1 post
1 tag
“I remember this so well. You where the one who always kept me caged. Always...”
December 2010
2 posts
“Beseech thy angel to speak my name, so in it’s splendor I may immolate.”
– The Charlatan
“I miss how the blood used to flow in crooked lines. Oh how much you taught...”
November 2010
3 posts
“All we were, was all we could ever be. Never was there there anything purer or...”
“Because all I have is you, and all I need is you. But I will never get anything...”
“All I once knew is now a fading dream. I’ll hold on to the fragments, to...”
October 2010
1 post
For a second I was home. I saw your face as clear as day. No longer blinded. I held your hand, pulled you in. You whispered something but before i could understand the vision was gone… Interrupted by the blaring of bomb sirens going off.
I wish i could rememeber the last 3 words you whispered to me. forever you’ll be a ghost haunting my every thought.
August 2010
3 posts
I know you can't...
Ever see this. you say you understand.
I know, i know,
I want to believe you but you i cant feel a thing.
Nothing i say is gonna change a thing.
I know this feeling is gone.
I know you can’t.
The End...
I’ve searched everywhere. please forgive me. I’ve failed you….
I will fail you no longer. Tonight I’ll join you in the last place I haven’t looked. The one place I cant go in this life.
When we see each other it will be like waking from a dream. We will no longer have to see the past. The present will be all thats left. And your voice will be all i hear.
You will...
Oh God. for the first time in my life I’m afraid of the dark.
Afraid because with darkness comes sleep. with sleep come the dreams. the dreams that even in beauty take my heart in a chokehold. and the nightmares. I don’t even know where to start with those.
Your face endlessly staring out the window leaves me paralyzed.
February 2010
2 posts
The bombs fell swiftly. There was no time to react. We just never saw this coming…
I hear Uptown got the worst of it. There were no “lucky” ones there. I was driving about 10 miles from the main impact zone when it hit. All I remember was a wave of red coming towards me. Next thing I know my car is on it’s side and I was waking up to the sunset with a nasty gash on my...
I was once the wine, and you the wineglass
April 02,
This is where it all began. This is my story. I’ve searched for you since that day on.
I was once alive, when you held me….
Tell me where have you gone, my love.
August 2009
2 posts
Steady with the rythm of my beating heart, I take each breath that keeps it beating………….. and beating…..
So useless, all of this struggle….. this is a battle it seems I can’t quit.
The Aftermath
I crawl, as i fail, to do the one thing that’ll set me free….
July 2009
2 posts
The Coward......
The first drops of blood fall in front of me …. Little by little the puddle starts to form.
My right wrist patiently waiting for a sweet kiss from this blade, all too eager to bring forth color into this dire wasteland…
The crimson blood falling holding such a contrast to the dull grays that have formed all around me. The moon bright and full, just as the night i lost you…
...
Drifting on a memory...
Our house lies in ruins… nothing left but ash and coal… only one wall stands defiantly through the wreckage, the window unbroken….
The rain threatening to extinguish the last few embers still burning. i know they won’t last long.
The downpour is too heavy for me to wait out here any longer. Our home destroyed, i no longer know where to find shelter…..
My feet...
May 2009
1 post
The Darkness....
And so the night wears on…. leaving me ever so blind. If even the sun can’t shine through these clouds what hope does the moon and her companions up above. desperation setting in… My days becoming more difficult to bear…. the nights even worse. The only thing i hold on to is this tattered photograph of us. one day even that will fade. what will i do then?
All i keep...
April 2009
1 post
Make your move...
Today I woke up covered in sand. The winds have been relentless and their fury only surpassed by the heat that threatens to suffocate me. More and more this wreckage is being transformed into a mere desert. The earth trying desperately to erase the horrors that have occurred here….
This was my mistake…..
How….. How did we end up here?
I scrub my skin raw… Anything to...
January 2009
1 post
At my darkest, I have seen the light. I’ll turn over a new leaf, this I swear…..
December 2008
2 posts
Tulips
Miserable, I sit, stunned by the dreams that cloud my mind…..
That night… When I truly felt alive…
The trail of tulips I left leading you to me… The knot in my chest growing as you walked up the stairs.. Making sure the ring was where I left it.. My heart beating knowing full well that tomorrow
Might never come….
But tomorrow did come… And your love kept...
You're Lying ... But I Don't Mind Tonight
Our bodies drenched in sweat…
Your nails dig deep into my back…..
A soft moan escapes your lips…
And another… And another…
Until they start to synchopate with my thrusting…
My hands glide over soft, Wet Skin..
I don’t know where my body ends and yours begins…
At this point we are one and the same….
Your moans begin a crescendo…
...
November 2008
2 posts
The Gentlemen
I’ve wandered down these cold and lonely streets…littered with trash… newspapers.. magazines… empty cans….. All blowing through these streets with me, tossing…. Turning.. blown from one corner to the next….all of us the only remnants of a world now dead….
The beating inside my chest…the pain of my heavy breathing …. The sound of my...
September 2008
4 posts
“You said,
there was nothing left down here,
Well I roamed around the wasteland...”
– Spencer Chamberlain
Screams Turn To Silence.....
A soundless scream exits my mouth….
NO! ….PLEASE…….no……….no……..
I stand before Blackened earth…
My Home….Our Home, lies scorched ……
flattened by the fire that rained down….
The flames still smoldering where we used to lie in bed ….
I wonder if my tears will ever be enough to put out this fire…..
...
Desolate Earth
I drive….. The world around me turning in slow motion…
only one thing on my mind…. is She alright ??…. is She safe??…
Smoldering wreckage fills the road…I’m forced to use the sidewalks…
racing through the shattered remains of this city….
making sure every second gets me closer to you…..
The blazing fires give the city an orange...
Awake or Dreaming?
The nightmares continue…….
And the memories of being close to you are starting to fade…
I’m beginning to fear that I truly am alone…..
August 2008
3 posts
Stranded….
The shadow of Her life drowns me out ….
Her pain sends me deeper….
Her blood chokes me, it fills me, it kills me …..
now the remnants of her Will, endure….
Endure the stopping of her beating heart….
So i cut deep, only to see the stream run dry….
For tonight we part my love, on this…..
The most Crimson of Nights……
“If you go away, as I know you must. You must tell the world to stop turning till...”
– Jaques Brel
Story of a living man....
Standing in the aftermath of this latest wave of destruction, i spot a Golden butterfly, swooping and climbing….Fighting for each inch of sky that is now his entirely… such a fragile life spared by this catastrophe, still fighting, still living…still flying.….. I stop and think that maybe i too will be alright….just maybe…
A memory sneaks up on me, an image of...